Robin Uthappa opens up on battle with depression after Graham Thorpe, David Johnson deaths | Cricket News

Former Indian cricketer Robin Uthappa opens up about his depression battles. The 38-year-old took to his YouTube channel to reveal his journey through the low points in his life. He would reveal how “worthless” he felt and was “ashamed” of himself.
“You feel like you are worthless, you feel like you are a burden to the people you love. You feel hopeless and every step feels heavier and heavier and heavier… With every step you take more is being added to you,” Uthappa said.
“I went through months off not wanting to get out of bed. I remember in 2011 I went the entire year so ashamed of who I had become as a human being that I couldn’t look at myself in the mirror,” he added.
Earlier in the month, former England batter Graham Thorpe who passed away aged 55, took his own life after battling chronic depression, his wife Amanda revealed.
Thorpe’s wife Amanda said: “Despite having a wife and two daughters whom he loved and who loved him, he did not get better. He was so unwell in recent times and he really did believe that we would be better off without him and we are devastated that he acted on that and took his own life.”
“My heart goes out to Graham Thorpe and his family. Can’t imagine what he went through to be able to do what he did. My prayers go out to his family. To David Johnson from India as well under similar circumstances,” Uthappa said in his video.
Former India cricketer David Johnson, who played two Test matches in 1996, has passed away in a tragic incident after a fall from his balcony on the fourth floor of an apartment in Bengaluru.
According to those in the know, Johnson has been battling health issues for the past year and has been in and out of hospital. It is learnt that Johnson spent the last week at the hospital and was discharged only three days ago. Uthappa also mentioned about Former India opener and national selector VB Chandrasekhar committed suicide in 2019.
Uthappa also revealed how he did not realise he was suffering from clinical depression initially: “I did not even realise I was even going through it. Something was innately wrong with me. My head felt so heavy my eyes my shoulders my legs my feet felt heavy. I had no explanation for it.
But I still had to turn up play cricket and turn up for the different commitments I had. I tried to escape it like an ostrich put its head into a hole thing.